Have you ever been in a situation where you feel like you do not fit? I mean any scenario. Maybe a social function, a group study, or worse, your place of employment. (yikes!) That’s where I am. I am blessed to have a great position and great experience under my belt, but not completely…comfortable. After much thought and reflection I’ve decided to branch out on my own and go from Corporate employment to self-employment.
From Corporate Employment to Self-Employment
I remember years ago, I watched my mother lug around large totes of adult pleasure items. She worked at Bank One but on the side made extra money throwing adult toy parties. (she’ll probably kill me for saying it, but YOLO). I was 18 at the time, so every now and then I would help her move her items to her parties. I could stay and watch her perform while ogling all the toys that were on display. I mean, I had just turned 18 and it was awesome to be able to see this stuff and not get in trouble! Sure, at times it was uncomfortable hearing my mother talk about s*x, but for the most part it was awesome to see her interact with the group. She was truly a people person. She would tell me her desires to work for herself and leave the rigid world of corporate America. However, (like a dumba**) I would retort that I’d prefer to work in the world of corporate, as self-employment was not for me.
Although short sighted, I wasn’t completely wrong. At that time, self-employment was not for me. I do cringe when I think about where I could be had I focused on owning my business at that time, but I needed to learn more lessons. I needed to create that fire and desire that is necessary for entrepreneurship. I had to go down my path so that I would appreciate where I would eventually want to go.
In the past year, I have been growing my side businesses and I realize how much effort (and money) it takes to run them. You must constantly think of ways to improve what you are doing. You spend hours of your life researching questions and laws. You spend tons of your own money trying to make your dream grow even if others do not support it. Nevertheless, I wouldn’t change a thing. I yearn for the ability to make my own schedule and have the freedom to do what I want to do in life. I do not wish to spend 40 years in a system where I cannot enjoy the abundance of knowledge and culture that is hidden throughout the world. I want to be able to be with my kids more versus being with the kids in a company that will lay you off should the time comes.
This is no dig towards anyone in corporate as I do enjoy it better than any other job that I had. What I realize is that I desire more than just “good enough”. I have struggled with this thought, as moving out on your own is scary. You could fail! Especially with all the changes in our country, one should ask themselves, “should I be doing this? Is now the right time?” In pondering this at my desk, my manager’s manager (or my grand manager as I like to call her) called me on my work line. She was asking for some data and I happily provided it to her along with a dose of my eternal cheeriness. She stopped and said something that reinforced my actions. “Payne, you do a good job here, but your talents are truly wasted in this position.” It was funny because I felt the same exact way.
Now I’m on a quest to be completely self-employed by 2019 and you good folks will hold me accountable! A tip for self-improvement is to share your goals with other people. They indirectly hold you accountable for your goals as they often will ask for status updates in general conversations. (i.e. “How’s such and such going?”) I’ll share my ups and down, my wins and losses. I will show you everything and either inspire you to try something new or improve what you are doing. Happy Friday Everyone!